She woke up and wished she could stay like this all day long. Darryl's arm was draped over her chest and his head was resting right next to hers. Brent had said he'd spent the night at Martin's and had implied it would be ok if they'd spend the night together. Darryl had been a little reluctant to engage her in any sexual activity that involved exposing his dick. At first she thought most guys have doubts about their tools, but all of her attempts had ended in Darryl giving her oral sex, great oral sex anyways. And after she asked him if there was any reason for him to not take the next step he said he needed some time. Even during Valentine's they hadn't gotten any further, not even could she give him any oral sex. Now as March was just around the corner she had been surprised when he said he was ready.

And the bigger surprise had been that he wasn't small at all. She had begun to think that it could be that his dick wasn't particularly big and that his size made him nervous. However, the night before she had discovered that Darryl's dick was actually very big. Nine inches of thick cut penis she thought. It hurt a bit at first, but Darryl was so caring and attentive, always asking her how she felt. Now as she lay awake she realized that it had been the best sex that she had experienced in her life. Not just because of Darryl's endowments, but also because he had been so good to her since they started dating in January. And he had been the guy that had waited the most to even bring up the subject of sex into their relationship.

He looked so gorgeous in his sleep. She moved his long hair back and out of his face. It was longer now, it reached to his shoulders and rested there. He needed to shave, but the coat of short facial hair that surrounded his lips made her want to kiss him even more. She moved the sheet off from his body so she could look at it. She ran her fingers over the small patch of dark hair in the middle of his pectorals. Then she ran them down over his hard stomach and traced the trail of dark hair that went down from his navel to his crotch. She reached her prize and wrapped her fingers around it, gently stroking it. Darryl's dick swelled in her grip and then she heard his breathing quickening, as she looked up she saw him looking down at her.

"God I'd never woken up like that before," he said smiling.

"Well you're gonna have to get used to it," she said as she threw the covers off them and then she took him in her mouth.

"Wait," he said as he sat up and pulled her up and off his dick. He pushed her down on the bed next to him and then went down on her. After a few minutes of eating her out she was rocking her hips.

"Oh come on, it's time already," she said breathing heavily. He got up smiling and took another condom out of his nightstand. He unrolled the magnum-sized condom on his dick and got in position. They kissed and as they were kissing, she felt him going in her. "Oh yeah," was all she could say once he was in her.

It was getting close to lunchtime. Ryan should be getting there any minute. He finished cutting the last roll he had prepared. He didn't really know how to do a lot of sushi, but he could get California rolls done pretty well, he had about four rolls ready and now he was just waiting for Ryan to show up. He wanted to get some sushi for Tommy and Dylan too, but now he realized he didn't have enough ingredients to prepare any for them. Well they could wait; he could get more stuff and do some for them another time. As he looked to the clock on the kitchen's microwave, he realized it was already fifteen minutes after two. They were both late; he didn't realize he had taken so long to get the sushi ready. But then again Ryan was late too.

He covered the sushi with some plastic wrap and made sure he had the soy sauce, wasabi and jasmine tea all set. He went to the living room and sat on the larger couch staring out the window. He could see Ryan pull up the driveway from there, or walking up to the door if he came walking. After a while, he realized that Ryan was very late. He flipped over his cell phone and dialed Ryan's number. He tried three times and got no answer. "Well, he might be on his way here already," he said aloud as he flopped down on the couch and lay there for a while. He turned on the TV and started flipping through channels. He ended up watching a documentary on the tsunami that hit Asia the past December. He realized after quite some time that it had been over an hour since he had flopped down on the couch, his stomach grumbling made him look at the time on his cell phone and he realized it was past three o'clock already.

He got up and went to the kitchen, took the plates with the sushi and placed them in the fridge. He called Ryan once again and got no answer, and then in a fit of rage he called Dylan.

"What's up big bro?" Dylan answered.

"You guys want the sushi? Come get it," Julian answered him.

"You sure? Didn't you say you could barely make enough for you and Ryan?" Dylan asked him.

"Yeah well apparently Ryan doesn't like sushi and standing me up seemed to him like the better way of telling me," Julian said in a rush and with a harsher tone than he'd intended.

"I'm sorry Jules, maybe he had something to do," Dylan tried to say excusing him.

"No, I'm sorry I shouldn't be laying this off on you. You know what? Just come have the sushi man, I'll go get something downtown," Julian told him.

"You sure about this?" Dylan asked him.

"Yeah, it's ok, I'll see if he calls later, but you gotta have the sushi it's not good to let it spoil," Julian assured him.

"Ok I guess, I'll ask Tommy and we'll be there soon," Dylan told him.

After he hung up he walked to the driveway and looked around checking to see if he'd see Ryan anywhere near. No such luck. He got in his car and drove to the Mall. When he got there he checked his cell to see if Ryan had called, but there were no missed calls registered. He called him and when the voicemail message came up he decided to leave Ryan a message telling him to just meet him at the Mall. He waited for quite a while and just walked around, his stomach roaring all the while. He went to the bookstore and exchanged greetings with the staff. They all knew him and liked him quite a bit. After browsing the new books that had been brought to the store he decided to walk around and check the stores. He checked his cell phone once more and saw that he had no missed calls or new messages.

"Screw this, I'll just go eat," he said as he felt himself getting angrier.

He went to the food court and got himself a tuna sandwich and some ginger ale. As he ate his sandwich he had that unmistakable feeling that he was being watched. He looked around and this blonde guy quickly looked away from him and blushed as soon as he spotted him. Nice he thought, he got back to eating his sandwich and then felt that he was being watched again. He looked back smiling and this time there was no doubt that the blonde kid turned beet red and looked down. Julian didn't look away and stayed looking at him so the blonde kid had to look up and look at him. He smiled at Julian and went back to eating his food. He smiled and thought that the kid was actually kid with his high cheekbones and short blonde hair. When he was done with his sandwich he got up and started pacing around the Mall.

He wanted to wait a little longer and then saw on his cell phone that it was a quarter to six and decided he wasn't waiting any longer. He started walking back to the front parking lot and as he was, he saw the blonde kid standing close to the exit. The kid smiled when he saw him and actually spoke.

"Hi, I saw you at the food court," the kid said.

"Yeah, I saw you too," Julian said feeling a little more sarcastic than he usually was.

"My name's Allen," the guy said. He was about five feet and nice inches. He had a slim frame, yet his shoulders were broad and his eyes were bright green. Very attractive Julian thought. Then it hit him, he was still with Ryan, he shouldn't be checking out other guys.

"I have a boyfriend," Julian just blurted and then he walked past the kid, without even shaking the hand that the kid was just offering out to him. He looked back and saw that Allen was standing there looking at the ground with his hands in his pockets. He walked to his car, got in and then got on his way back home. As he drove he felt terrible, the poor kid looked kinda hurt by his reaction, but he shouldn't be thinking about that, he had a boyfriend already. When he got to the house he saw that Tommy had parked his car and left enough space for him to get his car in the garage. After parking his car, he walked in and checked for them. When he got to Dylan's room he realized they were in there, and by the sounds of it they were "busy".

He went to his room and got in his bed, wishing that he could fall asleep and just forget about the whole deal. He started to think about possible reasons why Ryan might have missed their date, but he couldn't come up with anything that he'd at least think Ryan might have had to do instead. Then next thing he knew he opened his eyes as he felt his cell phone vibrating next to him.

"Hello?" he asked into the phone.

"Hey babe, I'm sorry I didn't get there today, I was... Uhm well I had to go with my mom to get her car in for a check up and then they found something wrong with it and so we had to stay," Ryan said.

"Well... Didn't you have your cell phone with you?" Julian asked him.

"Well... I left it at home charging," Ryan answered.

"Was it on or was it off?" Julian asked him.

"What?" Ryan asked.

"Your phone, was it on, or did you turn it off? 'Cause I called you quite a few times man," he said getting angry.

"It was off, but listen, we can get together tomorrow for lunch, I'll buy, let's meet at the Mall and I'll buy you one of those Tuna sandwiches you like," Ryan said trying to save his ass.

"OK, then I'll see you tomorrow," Julian answered.

"K, I'll see you at the food court at two o'clock," Ryan said.

"Fine, see you tomorrow then," Julian said before hanging up. He didn't buy it at all, Ryan's mom had fixed her car a few weeks earlier and it was working just fine. Besides, he knew that if Ryan's cell phone had really been off, then he would have gotten the voicemail directly every time he had called. Every time he had called, he had received a tone, which meant Ryan's cell phone had been on. He rolled over and put his cell phone under his pillow. "I don't buy any of your shit," he said before falling asleep again.

"Jules, big bro are you ok?" Dylan asked him.

He opened his eyes and sat up, rubbing his eyes as he tried to wake up. "Yeah, what time is it?" he asked once he thought he could manage to sound coherent enough.

"It's close to nine... I managed to fix us some food for dinner, Tommy helped if it makes you think it's any more edible," Dylan said. He knew that Julian wasn't ok and he wanted to be as supportive as he could, though he knew he wasn't really good at moral support.

"Whatever you made sounds good to me," Julian answered knowing very well that Dylan was trying to help him out. As he was going to get up he reached out and pulled Dylan into a hug.

"I love you Jules," Dylan said, not knowing what else he could say.

"He called, but I don't buy his excuse at all," Julian said into Dylan's ear.

"What are you going to do?" Dylan asked him.

"We're meeting tomorrow and whether he wants to talk or not, I will tell him what I think and make him tell me the truth," Julian answered.

"Do you think that he's... you know..." Dylan tried to say.

"Cheating on me?" Julian asked.

"Well I don't mean to imply..." Dylan started.

"I actually even thought that could be possible, I don't know, I'll see what happens tomorrow, right now let's just eat ok?" Julian asked as he got up and pulled Dylan by his hand.

"Why is it that I feel like you're not really here?" Martin asked as he watched Brent smiling as he looked out the window. Brent didn't even answer, he was so trapped in his thoughts that he didn't hear Martin's remark. "Brent!" Martin said loudly as he waved a hand in front of Brent's face.

"What?" Brent asked as he realized he had zoned out.

"Nothing, I think I'll go get some homework done," Martin said as he got up from Brent's bed and started to walk out.

"No, I'm sorry I mean it, I won't do it again!" Brent yelled. Martin stopped halfway to the door and looked back.

"I've been here for three hours and we've had like thirty minutes of real conversation because you keep wondering off to whatever it is that you have in your head," Martin said in a rush as he pointed at Brent with his fingers.

"I'm sorry, I just am a little distracted," Brent said trying to get off the hook.

"Well would you mind sharing whatever it is that has you so captivated?" Martin asked.

"I can't talk about it," Brent flatly answered.

"Fine, I guess I'll see you later," Martin said and he walked fast to the door and slammed it closed behind him. As he was getting close to the stairs, he heard a door open.

"You can't fucking do that!" Brent yelled from behind him.

He turned around and saw Brent was running after him. "What exactly do you mean I can't do?" Martin asked him in anger.

"Ask me about something I can't talk about and then just leave, if I tell you I can't talk about something then I can't!" Brent yelled once again at him.

"Stop yelling at me, you've been acting weird for the last few weeks and now you get mad at me 'cause I complain!" Martin shot back at him.

"And I don't get to complain because you've been dying to get Luke and Nate back together since they broke up?" Brent asked him.

"You're not being serious!" Martin yelled at him.

"I am, you've barely paid any attention to me, and now they're back together and suddenly I'm supposed to act like things never changed?" Brent yelled back at him.

"Fuck off!" Martin shot back and started to walk away.

"I'm not stupid man, I've seen the way you look at him, you just don't have the balls to tell me, or your cousin, that if Nate would ask you to you'd break up with me and run away with him in a second," Brent said with tears welling in his eyes.

He felt his heart started beating ten times faster than normal. Brent had figured him out. "What the fuck are you talking about?" he asked as he looked back at Brent.

"Don't try to give me that bullshit, you know exactly what I'm talking about," Brent said as he started crying.

"I'm not, you got it wrong..." Martin started to say, trying to come up with a good excuse.

"Don't bother... I have feelings for someone else too..." Brent said and Martin felt like he had been punched in the stomach. "You don't have to explain and I won't explain to you either, let's just move on and forget about it," Brent said as he started to turn around.

"Wait, are you breaking up with me?" Martin asked him.

"Yes I am, good luck Martin," Brent answered as he walked towards his room and quietly closed the door behind him.

He stood there for several minutes before he realized what had just happened.

"So Julian and his boyfriend are broken up now?" Luke asked him.

"Yeah, apparently Ryan thinks he's not ready for a serious relationship, he asked Julian if he wanted to be his fuck-buddy or have an open relationship," Nate answered.

"You're kidding... What an asshole," Luke said.

"Well, the guy is barely eighteen, and he is kind of attractive so I guess he thinks he can screw around and have more fun than he's having now," Nate said.

"Sounds like an immature idiot..." Luke said before he realized he hadn't been much different than Ryan a few months ago. "I'm sorry I guess I shouldn't be saying much about that with how I behaved," Luke said looking down.

"I thought we were already over this," Nate said as he walked behind Luke and wrapped his arms around the shorter man's shoulders. "You and I had trouble. We both made big mistakes and we both acted like idiots. It wasn't your doing or mine either," Nate whispered into his ear.

"I know, it's just that I feel a little hypocritical complaining about him knowing that I was letting my hormones take control like I did," Luke said as he enjoyed the embrace.

"You wanted to try sex with someone else, this guy went and slept with someone else behind Julian's back," Nate said wishing Julian would let him share a few thoughts with Ryan.

"Wow, I didn't know that, now I want to kick the guy's ass," Luke said as he turned around and kissed Nate.

"I know, but Julian says we should just forget about it and move on," Nate said as he remembered the conversation he had with Julian a few hours earlier as he waited for Luke to come look for him. "Though I actually think Dylan's right, Julian's trying to cope with this on his own and I think he should have some more support," Nate said after remembering the conversation he had with Dylan after he talked to Julian.

"Maybe we could go down there this coming weekend," Luke proposed.

"You sure? I mean... Would you really do that?" Nate asked him.

"Yeah, I know that what happened between you and Julian was a mistake, and I think I should show Julian I'm over it now," Luke said.

Nate smiled feeling more happiness than he had felt since he found out about Julian's break up. "Have I told you today that I love you?" Nate said before he kissed him passionately for a few seconds.

"So that means we are going huh?" Luke asked him smiling.

"Yup, looks like we are, let's just..." Nate started saying before he heard a knock on his door. He got up from his bed and went to the door. When he opened the door he felt terrible as he saw Martin standing there looking at the ground with a sorrowful look on his face.

"Brent broke up with me..." he said before he let out a sob.

"Oh Martin, buddy I'm sorry," Nate said as he wrapped his arms around him and pulled him inside.

"I went to look for Luke but he wasn't in his room... Oh there you are," Martin said as he saw Luke walking towards them from the bed. He let go of Nate and hugged Luke as he started crying.

"Did I just hear right? Brent broke up with him?" Luke asked Nate. Nate nodded his response and they both directed Martin to the spare bed on the right side of the room. They got Martin to sit down and Nate sat down next to him. "Do you have some water cups or something so I can get him some water?" Luke asked Nate.

"Yeah I've got my mug and a water bottle next to the sink in the bathroom," Nate told him and Luke went in the bathroom. "Martin, buddy, remember we love you man," Nate said into Martin's ear as he quietly cried on his shoulder.

The words had a bittersweet taste for Martin. He held Nate tighter and thought it was so ironic. He longed for Nate, wished he could have him as a boyfriend. Yet he knew he could never have Nate, and he had been suffering about it for quite some time now. It had been months since he had started trying to convince himself to forget the feelings he was developing towards Nate and now they had cost him his relationship with Brent. He realized he was calming down. Looking up he saw that Nate was smiling down at him and it was a sad smile in all honesty. Luke stood in front of him, motioning a black mug to him, he took it and downed half of it in a few seconds.

"Feeling better?" Luke asked him as he got on his knees before wrapping his arms around him.

"Yeah, I'm sorry if I interrupted something," Martin said as he wiped the tears away from his face.

"It's ok, with all the support you gave me this is nothing buddy," Luke said before he placed a kiss on his cheek. "Do you want to talk about it?" Luke asked him.

"No, not now anyways," Martin said shaking his head.

"We're here as long as you need us," Nate said as he placed a kiss right next to where Luke had kissed him.

"Thanks you guys," Martin said feeling a little better.

"Hey Martin, we're going to the twins' this coming weekend, if you want you can come with us and get away from here for a few days," Luke told him.

"Yup, might help a little. Julian broke up with Ryan, so we were thinking about going there for the weekend and keep him company for a while," Nate said.

"Yeah that actually sounds kind of nice," Martin said.

"Ok, I'm going to call Dylan and tell him the plan," Nate said as he got up and took out his cell.

"Poor Julian, his boyfriend stood him up twice last weekend and then when they saw each other at school the guy said he wanted either an open relationship or to break up," Luke said looking down.

"That sucks man," Martin said.

"The guy was actually cheating on him from what Nate tells me," Luke told him.

"Are you and Julian ok now?" Martin asked him.

"I want to get things straightened out between the two of us, I wasn't being fair to him if you think about it," Luke told him.

"Yeah but at least now you know you weren't being fair and you want to emend it all," Martin said.

"Yeah, I guess so," Luke said smiling up at him.

"All set, Dylan was excited about it and he said we'll work something up with the bed arrangements and all," Nate said as he sat down next to Martin.

"Great," Luke said as he sat down on the other side of Martin.

As he sat in between them he started feeling better thanks to their support, even though he still felt terrible about what had happened a while earlier with Brent. He had one thought running through his head repeatedly "Julian is single now."